The Wisdom of Skies

The trees lean as they will—
left, right, or somewhere in the middle.
The are rooted deep, casting honest shadows,
quiet, patiently growing this way and that;
together making a forest
more beautiful by their differences.

The creek hurries forward,
cutting through without permission,
clutching every fallen scrap—
a leaf, a stone,
the smallest rumor of soil.
It knows only the truth it gathers around itself,
its surface bright with conviction,
blind beyond its own course.

Above, the sky endures—
it has watched storms trade hands,
knows the trees for what they are,
knows the restless babbling of water,
and remains slow to judge,
as many are—those wise and open skies,
older than the arguments below.

Keep Quiet

The fire was hungry, a beast gorging itself on the cheap timber and vinyl siding of the Castle Point Apartments. It had a voice—something like a muffled airplane slowly powering up before takeoff. Clara Thorne stood just outside the chaos of gawkers and emergency vehicles, the air around her thick with the ghosts of things she used to own. She picked out the odor of her record collection melting into a black, bubbling goo. In the swirling wind above the hungry orange glow, she could see her beloved, dog-eared paperbacks now transformed into floating black confetti. She was awash in the odors of her life being reduced to a homogenized scent of ruin.

On the monitor clipped to the ENG camera, a different Clara Thorne stared back. This one was cool, composed, her makeup a perfect mask of professional empathy. The tally light on the camera was a single, bloody eye, and she spoke to it as if it were the only sane thing left in the world.

“—a four-alarm blaze that has consumed the entire structure,” she said. Her voice, the one the people of South Bend trusted to tell them the truth, was a smooth, factual river of dispassionate narration concealing her underlying panic. The words came automatically. They were armor. “For the two hundred residents of Castle Point, this is a night of unimaginable loss.”

You have no idea, lady, a sarcastic voice in her head whispered. It sounded a lot like her dad. Try unimaginable on for size. It fits like a coffin.

Behind her, the building gave a final, mortal groan and the roof collapsed inward, birthing a furious cyclone of sparks into the bruised night sky. A galaxy of tiny, dying stars, each one a memory. There goes the chipped coffee mug she’d had since college. There goes the afghan her grandmother had knitted, the one that always smelled faintly of mothballs and love. Gone. All gone.

“Back to you in the studio, Tom.”

The red eye winked out. The armor dissolved. The professional construct known as Clara Thorne evaporated, and in her place was a thirty-eight-year-old woman in a soot-stained blazer who owned nothing but a ten-year-old Toyota and a gym bag full of sweaty laundry. The heat of the fire was suddenly personal, a physical blow. The beast on the other side of the yellow tape started to die, but it had already won the fight.

Her cameraman, Dave, a gentle bear of a man, touched her elbow. “You okay, Clara? You were totally professional.”

“Just peachy,” she heard herself rasp.

As she drove away, the real damage settled in. It was the quiet, mundane reality of cold numbers on a banking app. She’d always been responsible, hadn’t she? But the numbers on the glowing screen told a different story. They spoke of a quiet, steady bleeding, a decade and a half of pious donations tot he church. Ten percent, right off the top, to St. Jude’s. Then the extra bits, the little nips and tucks: the Bishop’s Appeal, the Missionaries Fund, the Catholic Charities drive. She had, with the best of intentions, tithed herself into vulnerability.

She wasn’t just homeless. She was broke. This was a very American kind of problem, an unforeseen catastrophe, the one that pushes you right over the edge you’ve spent your whole life pretending wasn’t there. She couldn’t help but remember a story she covered years ago, about how so many people live beyond their means and are one bad break away from homelessness.

There was only one place to go. The institution that held her life savings in its collection plates.


St. Jude’s was one of those modern churches that looked more like a regional airport than a house of God. Inside, the silence was vast and sterile, smelling of lemon polish and a faint, underlying hint of damp, old stone. It was the kind of quiet that feels like it’s listening.

Father Michael glided out of the sacristy, his professional smile clicked firmly into place. It was a politician’s smile, all teeth and no warmth. It was the kind of smile that assured you of salvation while asking you for money. Clara felt conflicted. She wanted a softer heart in this moment, to view Father Michael in the more charitable light, but she was drowning in her own troubles and she simply had no more to give.

“Clara. My dear child. I saw the broadcast. Such a tragedy. I was praying for the victims.”

“One of them is here.” Her voice was not as soft as she wanted it to be. “My home is ash. I need help. Can I get you to do a special collection for me, or just a bridge loan—call it an advance on fifteen years of tithes and gifts.”

He blinked. “Oh, Clara. How terrible. But your faith is strong. God provides—”

“Father Michael. I’ve been paying you for years, every time you ever asked, I was there. Now I am asking. Help me with a loan or something.”

He put the soft smile back on. “The Church is not a bank. Our funds are for the truly hopeless. You’ll endure this trial.”

The anger that had been simmering inside her boiled over. It was hot and ugly and liberating.

“You want to see a test of spirit, Father?” she yelled, and the sound of her own voice, a raw, profane thing in this holy place, was a shock. “I gave you my money, my time, my belief! I gave you my professional credibility! And in return, you give me a pep talk? You are a black hole in a white collar! A spiritual pyramid scheme!”

Fueled by the sheer, exhilarating blasphemy of it, she stormed down the aisle and slammed her open palm against the base of the huge cross.

Pain, white and electric, shot up her arm. She jerked her hand back with a choked cry. A long, dark splinter from the cross had driven itself deep into the meat of her palm. It wasn’t a clean wound. It was a violation. The wood had plunged in and then broken off, a piece of the sacred object now embedded in her profane flesh, a tiny, hostile stowaway.

A single drop of her blood, dark as wine, fell and hit the white marble floor.

And the church, the building itself, reacted. They both felt it.

It wasn’t a sound. It was a presence making itself known. Every candle in the building was extinguished at once, their flames not flickering out but snuffed, as if by a vast, invisible hand. A long, hairline crack snaked its way across the ceiling, a silent, plaster scar that shed a fine white powder that rained down over everything. The church was affirming her words, or recoiling from them, but in either case, her blood and rage invited something that lay dormant in the room.

Father Michael’s face had gone the color of old parchment. The smile was gone, utterly erased, replaced by the slack-jawed terror of a man who has just seen a ghost at the foot of his bed. He wasn’t looking at the candles or the ceiling. He was staring, transfixed, at the ugly, weeping wound in her hand.

“There’s a place,” he whispered, his voice a reedy thing, all the holy resonance gone. “A convent. Our Silent Mother, off Dragoon Trail. They… they take in women. For refuge.”

He was scrambling now, like a terrified bureaucrat trying to contain a hazardous spill. He needed to do something. Not out of charity, but out of fear. He was trying to appease her now, and lessen the possibility that she might use her media platform to damage the church. This wasn’t the Clara he knew. This was a different Clara, stronger and possibly even formidable.

“It could be an opportunity,” he stammered, his sales pitch returning. “A story. The quiet life of devotion. Uplifting.”

He want on to explain how the sisters needed money and a feelgood story about them might help grease the wheels. It was a win for everyone.

Clara saw the whole, shabby transaction. He couldn’t just offer her a safe haven for the night. There had to be something in it for the church. Ohh, yes, I’m sure to find a story in all this. She thought.

“Thank you, Father,” she said, her voice dripping with a sweetness that was its own kind of poison. “It sounds like God’s own grace.”


The Convent of Our Silent Mother wasn’t so much a building as a secret. It squatted behind a high stone wall on a forgotten stretch of road, a place that time and memory had agreed to ignore. The air inside the walls was heavy and still, tasting of damp earth and a century of unspoken resentments.

The nun who met her at the gate was young, with the wide, terrified eyes of a trapped animal. She did not speak at all, and any small sound—the crunch of Clara’s shoes on the gravel, the soft thump of her duffel bag against the stone threshold—made the girl visibly flinch, a reaction that was deeply abnormal. Immediately, this convent did not feel like a place of peaceful contemplation. It felt like a place of profound, pathological fear. Something put that nun on edge. It was palpable and unnerving.

She was led to her room, a stone cell designed to scrub the soul clean of all comfort. The nun nodded and she left Clara to settle in. She turned the door knob and pulled the door shut so slowly that it closed nearly silently. It felt like a lesson. This is how you close a door. And with that lesson, the silence itself seemed to be the loudest thing in the room. It wasn’t merely an absence of noise. It felt like a presence. It was a thick, listening, waiting thing, a predator waiting to pounce.

The next morning, Clara left to return to work. She asked the news station for an advance. They said no, but they did grant her a few weeks to produce a story about the convent. Apparently Father Michael had already called her boss with the request.

With this in mind, she hatched a plan. By promising to do a story, she would continue to be paid while she lived for free at the convent for several weeks. She made good money. A few weeks of paychecks was all she would need to get a new apartment and start to put her life back together. Funny how fast the money would pile up now that she decided to stop giving to the church.

After living for a few days in the convent, she was starting to feel anxious. She needed to find a story here, something unexpected. She was not going to be Father Michael’s mouthpiece. And more than that, there really was something strange going on here. Clara started keeping a notebook, a journalist’s habit that now felt like an anchor to sanity. They’re not worshipping God, she wrote. I heard a whisper just before daybreak. They’re trying to keep something asleep.

Each night she heard the sound of stifled weeping from another cell, a sound of pure, hopeless misery. The weeping would always end abruptly, cut off mid-sob, as if the woman had been smothered. And in the deeper silence that followed, Clara sometimes felt a cold spot drift past her, a patch of intelligent cold that made the hairs on her arms stand up. She tried to makes notes about this in her book but no matter how carefully she tried to express it, when she read it back she sounded like a lunatic.

The splinter in her palm was a constant, throbbing misery. She’d tried to dig it out, but it was too deep. The skin around the wound had taken on a strange, bruised, purplish color, and sometimes, in the faint candlelight, she thought she could see dark lines spreading from it, like tiny black veins. It felt… active. It felt like it was digging itself deeper.

She kept investigating. Her break came in the scriptorium, a library of moldering, forgotten books adjacent to the chapel. The cold in this room was a living entity, a physical weight that pressed on her chest. She found a diary here. A loose floorboard, a hidden cavity, a leather-bound journal. It was a classic gothic trope, but the frantic, spider-web handwriting inside was terrifyingly real. It was the personal log of a woman sent here in the 1950s.

September 14th, 1911

The sin is not just the silence. The sin is the sound of the coins.

I write this confession by the last light of a guttering candle. Bishop Alistair visited today. He did not come to pray; he came to inspect his accounts. I was mending a tapestry in the sacristy, hidden from view, and I heard everything.

The Abbess fretted over our dwindling funds, the cost of bread, the leaking roof. The Bishop laughed. It was not a kind sound. “The faithful are generous,” he told her. “Every Sunday, they fill the plates to feed the poor. Who are we to deny them that holy work?”

But I see now that money never reaches the poor. It does not buy bread for the hungry or blankets for the cold. It pays for this place. It pays for the stone and mortar that wall us in. It secures this larder for the hollow thing in the chapel.

The Bishop called this convent his ‘solution.’ A ‘final repository for troublesome souls.’ I heard him list them with satisfaction: the young priest who questioned the sale of indulgences; the scholar who found errors in the Latin texts; the outspoken women who dared to ask for a voice. They are not sent here for pious repentance. They are sent here for disposal.

It is a cruel, perfect, self-sustaining design. He knows that people of loud conviction cannot fall silent on command. It is against their very nature. He sends his critics to the one place in his diocese where speaking out is a death sentence. Their passionate arguments, their whispered heresies, their desperate prayers—they are all just different ways of ringing the dinner bell.

So this is the Church’s great, profane machine. The tithes collected to feed the poor are instead used to run a prison. The prison is filled with anyone who speaks out against the Church’s power. And their inevitable failure to observe the silence creates a never-ending flow of souls to be devoured by the creature that guarantees the Bishop’s authority.

He doesn’t just silence his critics; he makes them the fuel for his engine of terror. And the piously donated coins of the faithful pay for every last scream.

As she read the last, spidery sentence, a clap of thunder, loud as a cannon shot, shook the convent to its foundations. Clara yelped, a small, sharp cry of shock. She slapped a hand over her mouth, her eyes wide with terror. That yelp. Had she rung the bell?

I am really losing it now.

A new sound began, rhythmic and insane in the crushing quiet. Drip… drip… drip… A leak in the chapel roof. Each drop was a tiny hammer blow against the relentless silence.

She walked into the chapel. The nuns were there, a flock of terrified sheep, their eyes fixed on the ceiling. Water was falling onto the stone floor with an echoing plink. Then an old nun tried to catch the water in a brass basin, and the sound changed to a loud, metallic CLANG.

The young sister, who I first met when I arrived, dropped to her knees and started praying out loud. “Ohh heavenly Father, protect us now!” And with a sudden swiftness, one of the older nuns clamped a hand over her mouth. Stifling the prayer.

The shadows in the corner of the chapel, the ones by the altar that had always seemed unnaturally deep, began to move. They weren’t shadows anymore. They were something. A thick, black, oily substance that was pulling itself up from the floor, coalescing into a shape.

It took shape, even as nuns dropped to their knees, praying like mute children scream, mouthing unspoken words, their faces changing to a rictus of horror before the foreboding presence. It took the shape of a black nightmare in a nun’s habit. Impossibly tall, skeletal, its robes little more than grave-rags. Its skin was the color of old bone, and faint, dark letters seemed to writhe just beneath the surface, as if its flesh were made of dark scriptures that had gone rotten. Its mouth was a perfect terror of its own: a puckered, stitched-shut orifice, sewn with black wire from which a thick, inky fluid, like crankcase oil, wept.

As the nuns let out trembling gasps and strangled cries of fear, a tremor wracked the creature. It raised its hands to its face and tore the wires from its flesh. The sound was wet and horrible. The jaw, now free, unhinged. It stretched, distended, became a black, silent, screaming hole, an entrance to a place where light and hope had never existed.

And in that moment, something shifted in Clara Thorne. The fear was still there, a cold, hard knot in her stomach, but it was joined by something else: a white-hot, cleansing rage. This thing, this abomination, was the final, ugly truth behind all the smiling lies of Father Michael, behind all the empty piety and the stolen tithes from the congregation. This was the monster at the heart of the machine.

She ripped her camera from its bag. This was her job. To point a lens at the darkness and refuse to blink. She powered it on, the electronic beep seemed like a defiant trumpet blast. She hit the switch for the LED light, and a beam of pure, uncompromising white light cut through the gloom and struck the creature.

It recoiled with a silent, agonized hiss. The light seemed to burn it, to peel back its layers of shadow.

Clara raised the camera to her shoulder, the plastic body of it cool and solid and real against her cheek. She began to speak, her voice ringing out, each word a stone thrown at the monster.

“This is Clara Thorne, reporting live! The Church has a secret, a dirty little secret it has kept buried here for a hundred years! It has fed its faithful to a thing of darkness, trading their lives for silence! But the silence ends tonight!”

The creature unleashed a shriek, but it was a shriek of pure psychic energy, a wave of silent, concussive force that blew the stained-glass windows out of their frames, showering the chapel in a rain of colored glass.

And then the nuns, their vows, their fear, their silence all shattered by that psychic blast, finally found their voices. They screamed. A chorus of raw, ragged, human screams, a sound of terror and pain and, underneath it all, a terrible, dawning liberation. They fled, a stampede of broken women.

The creature ignored them. Its eyeless face was fixed on Clara. On the light. On the voice. It surged toward her, a river of animated shadow and ancient hate.

She stood her ground. She held the camera steady. And as the thing lunged, its impossible mouth gaping to swallow her whole, the splinter in her hand flared.

It wasn’t a pain anymore. It was a heat. A clean, white, brilliant heat. A pure, holy fire. The skin of her palm glowed, and through it she could see the splinter, no longer a sliver of dark wood, but a sliver of pure, concentrated light. It wasn’t a piece of the cross. It was a piece of the faith the cross was supposed to represent, a tiny, forgotten spark of the real thing.

She didn’t think. She acted. As the maw of darkness descended, she balled her hand into a fist and punched straight into the creature’s throat.

“Get out of my story!” she roared.

The moment the splinter made contact with the unholy thing’s core, it detonated. Not with a sound, but with a silent, absolute explosion of pure white light. It was the light of a star being born. The creature was unmade, its substance of shadow and spite simply ceasing to exist, erased by a force its darkness could not comprehend.

The light faded, leaving Clara standing alone in the wrecked but cleansed chapel. The recording light on her camera was still blinking. The first, tentative rays of dawn were filtering through the broken windows.

She had faced the thing that fed on silence. And she had made it headline news. The story was hers. And she was going to tell it.

Lunch

The fluorescent lights of Prolific Corp hummed a monotonous B-flat, a sound Arthur had learned to filter out years ago. It was the soundtrack to the slow erosion of his soul, a dull drone for a life lived in a beige cubicle. He stared at a spreadsheet, the columns of numbers wavering like a desert mirage. A low growl echoed in the quiet of his stomach, a familiar emptiness that food never seemed to fill.

It was 12:05 PM. Lunchtime.

With the squeak of worn-out casters, he pushed back from his desk. The office was a prairie of low-walled cubicles, each containing a life not so different from his own. He caught Brenda from accounting massaging her temples, her face a mask of weary indifference. Across the way, Tom from marketing spoke into his headset, his shoulders slumped in a posture of perpetual apology. Then there was Sarah, the new intern, still radiating a kind of hopeful energy that felt alien in this place. Give it six months, Arthur thought, not unkindly.

He navigated the maze to the breakroom, a windowless cell that smelled of stale coffee and microwave-nuked fish. In the corner, next to a water cooler that had been empty since the Clinton administration, stood the vending machine. It was a new addition, a featureless black monolith that had simply appeared one Monday. No branding, no logos, just a cool, glowing screen displaying generic options.

He’d never used it. His daily ritual involved a limp, slightly damp turkey sandwich brought from home. But he’d been in a rush this morning, a frantic scramble out the door that left his brown-bagged lunch sitting forlornly on the kitchen counter. He fished a crumpled dollar from his pocket. It felt thin and pathetic in his hand. He smoothed it against the machine’s face and fed it into the slot. The machine accepted it with a soft, mechanical sigh.

He scanned the options. C12: Salty Chips. D5: Sugar Bomb Soda. E7: Chocolate-ish Bar. Nothing really grabbed him. He was about to jab a random button when his eyes landed on the final entry, F9. The display beside it offered no picture, no clever name. Just a single, sterile word: “Lunch.”

He frowned. What kind of lunch? It was absurdly vague. For a moment, he hesitated, a prickle of unease on his neck. Then he scoffed at himself. It’s a vending machine, not an oracle. What did it matter? He pressed F9.

The machine’s interior whirred and clanked, a series of discordant sounds like a toy robot falling down a flight of stairs. A small, plain white box dropped into the collection slot with a dull thud. He reached in, his fingers brushing against the cool, smooth cardboard. It was heavier than he expected.

Back at his desk, the box sat on his keyboard, feeling like a lead weight. A strange mix of hopeful foreboding, heavy and thick as molasses, settled over him. It’s just food, he told himself, shaking his head. You’re being ridiculous.

He lifted the lid.

Inside, nestled on a bed of what looked like shredded tax forms, was a single, raw animal heart. It was a glistening and slick, bloody ruby against the stark white of the box. The coppery smell filled his nostrils, and a wave of nausea buckled his stomach. He slammed the box shut, his own heart hammering against his ribs.

His head snapped up. He scanned the office, his eyes wide with a frantic, disbelief. Both horrified and confused. Why? Should I tell someone? Am I being pranked? He looked around more carefully, scanning for a perpetrator.

Nothing.

Brenda was now scrolling through her phone, a faint smile on her lips. Tom was off his call, typing furiously. Sarah was organizing a stack of papers. Everything was normal.

Except it wasn’t.

He shoved the box into his desk drawer, his hands trembling. He tried to focus on the spreadsheet, but the image of the raw, bloody organ was seared onto the backs of his eyelids. His stomach rumbled again, a low, insistent growl that was no longer just hunger. It was a demand. A strange, new kind of craving began to bloom, dark and thorny. He tried to ignore it, but the gnawing emptiness grew with each passing second. A bead of sweat trickled down his temple. He had to eat. He had to.

With a shaking hand, he retrieved the box from the drawer. He opened it and stared at the heart. His stomach churned with revulsion, but the primal craving was stronger. He picked it up. The cold, slippery flesh sent a shiver through him. He closed his eyes, tilted his head back, and took a bite.

The taste was metallic and raw, the texture a shocking combination of yielding flesh and tough sinew. It was the most disgusting thing he had ever tasted. And the most satisfying. The gnawing hunger vanished instantly, replaced by a profound, unnerving calm. He finished the heart in two more bites, his mind blessedly, terrifyingly blank.

He tossed the empty box into his wastebasket and turned back to his screen, the taste of blood lingering on his tongue. He didn’t understand what had just happened. He only knew, with a certainty that chilled him to the bone, that some invisible line had been crossed.

The next day, Arthur brought a sandwich. A robust, home-prepped roast beef on rye, packed with lettuce and sharp mustard. At 12:05, he unwrapped it defiantly. He would eat his own food. He would not go near that machine. It was a thing of nightmares, the whole scene from yesterday. The memory replayed through his mind over and over like a worn out needle skipping on a broken record. Relentless and ever-more unsettling.

At 12:15, as he bit into the safety of his own sandwich, his cell phone rang. It was his neighbor, Janet, her voice tight with panic. “Arthur, it’s Mittens. Oh, God, Arthur, I’m so sorry. He darted into the street… there was nothing the driver could do.”

The world dissolved into a muffled roar. Mittens. His cat of fourteen years, the one warm, living thing that greeted him at the door each night. The sandwich turned to ash in his mouth. He mumbled something to Janet, hung up, and stumbled to the men’s room, where he was violently sick. He didn’t eat another bite all day. The hunger that evening was a hollow, aching grief that he could not discern from the deep sense of loss he felt for his beloved cat. Every woeful, consuming feeling devoured all the happiness in the world, and left him in soulful pain, the single worst feeling he had ever experienced. Mittens was a thread of life in a spiral of death that was his pathetic existence.

“Why me?” he whimpered into his pillow. As he drifted off to sleep, unwelcome answers pressed into his dreams. The vending machine. The sandwich. Swirling visions mixed with images of sorrow, crumpled dollar bills, and nondescript white boxes.

The next morning, he had no food to bring. The refrigerator was empty, except a third of a bottle of old orange juice he was reluctant to throw away, but too repulsed by to drink. By noon, he was starving, and he stood in front of the machine again. He didn’t want to be here. He felt numb inside. Still reeling from the loss of his pet. Still haunted by his dreams. And, if he was honest with himself, he wanted to quit his job and just go home, but there was nothing there for him either. Not any more.

If Arthur wanted anything at all, it was to actually feel something. He needed to be grounded in the moment. And so here he was, at the machine, responding to a strange kind of magnetic pull he felt powerless to deny. The dollar bill shook in his hand as he fed it to the machine. F9. Lunch.

The box that dropped down was heavier. He knew, even before he opened it, that it would be something worse. He carried it to his desk like a bomb, his breath held tight in his chest.

He opened the box.

On a bed of dirt and dried leaves lay the severed head of his cat, Mittens. One eye was closed, the other stared up at him, a milky, vacant orb. A small, perfect horror. Arthur didn’t scream. The sound was trapped in his throat, a knot of pure terror. This wasn’t random. This was a message. You disobeyed. This is the price.

The hunger was back, sharp and cruel. It wasn’t a choice. It was a command. He looked at the head, at the familiar patch of white fur on its nose, and a sob escaped him. Then, with the methodical movements of a man in a trance, he closed the box, took it to the empty stairwell, and did what he had to do. The crunch of bone was the loudest sound he had ever heard.

The days bled into a horrifying new routine. He would try to resist, and the world would punish him. He skipped the machine on Tuesday, and by evening, his grandmother, ninety-two and in a nursing home, had a sudden, catastrophic stroke. The box on Wednesday contained a single, gnarled finger, her wedding ring still glinting on its knuckle.

He began to change. His already thin frame grew gaunt. His skin took on a pale, waxy sheen, and dark circles bloomed under his eyes, giving him a haunted, skeletal look. His coworkers noticed.

“Rough weekend, Art?” Tom asked, leaning over the cubicle wall. “You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”

Arthur just grunted, not looking up from his screen.

“Seriously, man, are you okay?” Tom pressed, his voice laced with genuine concern. “We’re all a bit worried.”

“I’m fine,” Arthur snapped, his voice harsher than he intended. “Just leave me alone.”

He could feel their eyes on him. He heard the whispers by the coffee machine. Brenda’s voice, sharp and speculative. “…must be drugs. Or maybe a gambling thing…” He was becoming a pariah, a ghost haunting his own life.

One Friday, a small white box appeared on his desk. Not from the machine. A note was attached, written in bright, bubbly handwriting. “Thought you could use a pick-me-up! – Sarah.”

He opened it. Inside was a perfect-looking turkey and cheese on rye. Wholesome. Normal. A lifeline. With trembling hands, he picked it up and took a bite.

It had no taste. It was like chewing on cardboard and packing peanuts. His body, now conditioned to a diet of horrors, rejected it. He gagged, spitting the mouthful into his trash can as his stomach heaved. The hunger, the real hunger, screamed in his gut.

He fled to the breakroom, his body trembling with a desperate, all-consuming need. He jammed the dollar into the machine. F9. The box clattered down.

He didn’t even take it back to his desk. He opened it right there, in the stale air of the breakroom. Inside, nestled on a bed of bright pink rose petals, was a single, perfect blue eye. It stared up at him, the exact shade of Sarah’s.

This time, he screamed. A raw, guttural howl of pure, unadulterated anguish. He dropped the box, stumbling backward, crashing into a table. The eye rolled onto the linoleum floor, its gaze unbroken.

He turned and ran. He fled the office, the B-flat hum chasing him down the hallway. He burst out onto the street, the sounds of the city a deafening, chaotic roar. He ran without direction, his lungs burning, tears streaming down his face. He ran until his legs gave out and he collapsed in a heap in a dirty alleyway, his body wracked with ragged, soul-shattering sobs.

He lay there for a long time, the city a blur around him. There was no escape. The machine had its hooks in him, and it would never let go. It had taken everything from him—his pet, his family, his sanity. The hunger was still there, a monster coiling in his belly. It needed to be fed.

Slowly, deliberately, he sat up. He looked at his left hand, at the pale skin, the long, thin fingers.

With a strange, terrifying calm, he brought the hand to his mouth. He hesitated for only a second, then bit down, hard. The pain was searing, white-hot, but beneath it, there was something else. A familiar, metallic taste. The texture was both disgusting and, in a horrifying way, deeply satisfying.

The hunger began to subside, replaced by the blank, blessed calm he now craved more than life itself. He was no longer a man. He was just a vessel for this monstrous appetite. And in the grimy solitude of the alley, he finally began to eat. This time, determined to be full.

©2025, Glenn Lyvers

Looking Skyward at Grandview

Looking Skyward at Grandview

(for Lt. Col. Boyd D. “Buzz” Wagner)

It must have felt strange, letting the world fall from your hands—
that first skyward yaw pulling the wheels from the ground,
Johnstown shrinking to hills and smokestacks below,
and the wide sky, waiting with arms outstretched.

You were a boy with steel wings and quiet eyes,
flung far from home, drawing fire in churning skies,
and through that hellish heaven above,
eight names fell behind your streaking shadow—
planes broken and folded into silence,
your guns unstitching their borrowed air.

They called you the first ace—
because we saw who you really were,
the first to rise and not come back the same.

A poet once wrote, something does not love a wall,
and the sky is no different. The impossible
weight of metal surrendered to the wind,
pulling glory from the sky, the same weight
that breaks all our heroes.

And in the January cold, when you came home to Johnstown,
the town surged forward, and stood still for you,
twenty thousand strong,
lining the winter streets in silence and frozen breath.

Still, we carry your memory like a warm flame,
and lest we forget, it is etched in Grandview stone.
Even the sky remembers with each passing breeze—
airy whispers drifting over your grave.
And when we pass by and read your name,
we pause and glance once more toward the sky—
our hearts pulled upward, as if we might leave the ground
to feel what it meant to rise and not come back the same.

©Glenn Lyvers 2025
(“Buzz” is buried in Grandview Cemetery, Johnstown, PA)

Untitled (Haiku)

after the battle
fields of mustard flowers bloom
deserters return

Cranberry Banana Bread

Ingredients

3 cups rolled oats ground into oat flour
3 large bananas
1/3 to 1/2 cup dried cranberries
1/4 cup mik
1 tablespoon vanilla extract 
1/3 cup maple syrup
2 eggs
1/4 cup brown sugar
3 tsp cinnamon
1/8 teaspoon salt
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon baking powder

Instructions

  • Preheat oven to 350F.
  • Using a food processor / blender / nutri-bullet or whatever, grind 3 cups of steel cut oats into fine oat flour. 
  • In a large bowl, mash bananas with a fork. Then, whisk in all the wet stuff. 
  • In a seperate bowl, add all the dry stuff and mix to combine evenly.
  • Next, combine all ingredients together into a wet batter and allow to rest for 5 minutes. 
  • Bake in a buttered loaf pan for 50-55 minutes. Test with a dry toothpick.

This recipe was inspired by a recipe I found online at Hungry Hobby.
https://hungryhobby.net/oat-flour-banana-bread/

 

When I baked this bread, I was hoping for rustic, healthy bread. Quickbreads are great at showcasing ingredients like nuts and berries, fruits, vegetables, and rustic grains. This turned out a little heavy, and super delicious. It really hits the spot. This bread is very filling, high-fiber, and nutrient-rich without gluten. Give this a try.