For Sara Ellen, Going Home
Ninety-five Junes
and the red clay
still knows your name.
Georgia took you back
the way it takes everything —
slow, patient,
warm in the palm.
In the kitchen
the biscuits are rising
without you.
Faith is small again,
flour on her chin,
and you are chasing her
past the screen door
into a light
that has not yet
learned how to leave.
Maters on the sill.
A pot of beans
murmuring to itself
all afternoon
like a woman
half in prayer.
You taught me
that this is prayer.
Daddy and the moonshine,
the jar held up
to a kerosene sun —
how he laughed,
how the laugh
stayed in the wood
of the house
for years afterward.
How yours did too.
How it does.
The shop on the corner.
Tom’s, and then yours —
The Jett Sett —
thirty-five years
of women rising
from the chair
a little more
themselves.
You touched their heads
the way the preacher
touched water:
gently,
and meaning it.
Three million little books
slipping into hands
on the other side
of the world.
John, chapter one.
In the beginning.
You knew
where the beginning was.
You sent it
in envelopes.
Bells. Angels.
A garden
that forgave you
every spring.
Two husbands
gone on ahead
to set the table.
Three daughters
already there,
waiting at the door
the way you waited
for them
to come home from school.
And Linda —
Linda who has never
been alone,
not for a single
hour of her life,
because you were there,
and now
the others are there,
the way a house
keeps standing
when one beam
is taken
because every other beam
remembers
how to hold.
She will not be alone.
You made certain of that
the way you made
certain of everything —
quietly,
across decades,
without once
calling it love
because you were
too busy
doing it.
And somewhere
a girl is dancing —
hips, scarves,
a borrowed brass coin
catching the lamp —
and she is you,
and she is laughing,
and the laugh
is the same one
that rang through
every room
you ever blessed
by walking into.
Sara,
the clay is red,
the biscuits are warm,
the river is close.
Go on.
We will find you
in the small things —
a bell,
a bean,
the wing
of an angel
left on a windowsill
that we did not put there.